This unfortunate picture of a hurricane forming somewhere in another country other than mine is being used today to try and convey the emotions i’m experiencing at this moment in time. A precious family member is mentally ill and has been for the past 10 years since their mid-teens. In a way, the photo above could signify their state of mind as well. They are currently within the confines of a small hospital in another town due to an all too frequent breakdown. Before they became an adult at 18 (Australia) I was kept informed and allowed input into their psychological care. Now she is an adult, I’m not allowed to know anything. Neither am I listened to if I have some information about what triggered this latest breakdown. All I can do is watch from the periphery and hope for the best. What I hate the most is how social media was able to share with the world their complete breakdown, every horrible, awful non-sensical thing her mind told her to spew forth about everybody that ever loved them. Their “friends” goading them on, online. We, as their family members must just suffer the consequences, yet again. What is so sad, is that some of us cannot deal with this anymore. If a loved one continues to stop taking their meds because they “feel” better, who is policing this if they refuse psychological help? I know there is no easy answer. I guess when their inner demon quietens down enough for them to hear another voice, change may happen.
I like the picture above as it shows a boardwalk close to where I live, near the ocean, dappled in sunlight and part shade. It is a bit like life. The walk we take is a mixture of light and shade, often in equal measures. I like to think that i’ll just keep walking through the shady bits till I get out into the sunshine.
The above funny quote is how I often get myself through particularly dark and shady days. I am good enough. 🙂